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Saturday, December 29, 2007

ookayy. time flies by.
schl's starting soon
and i had actually my own plans for today.
but then daddy suddenly wanted to go msia
o.O family outing yea.
haha k so everyone went
and i got woken up at 10! zzzzzz ):
and thus i had to drag my aching body to msia.

anw the first part sucked.
so when we reached i was zombie-ing
and i wouldnt talk. xD
wahaha. sian la. so many steps up down
my muscles were racking my nerves up
anw i shant go into the details of today
tsk. if not thepost would be a few thousand words long
yuppppppp. anw shop until feet even more pain man
i wasnt exactly in comfort shoes
hais. and tho i dont like shopping
once i start i take very long to choose and everything
cause i dont wanna come back
yeaaa.
and poor daddy got very tired waiting for us

anw spent like 500rm++ today
mostly contributed by daddy's adidas shoes o.O
oh well. haha but it made him a happy man after that
apparently the shoes were very comfortable, allowing him to stand
and wait a few more hours for us
heeee hahaha

yupp i bought er. 2 shirts. almost bought shoes
but then wasnt suitable.
anw, now im back!
yay. hahaha home sweet home
i still love singapore better
kk anw tmr gg for first service
earlyearly
cyaa

i'm not in love ;
11:26 PM;

Tuesday, December 25, 2007

hello!!
hohoho
merry xmas
haha i made my sister wait tilll exactly twelve last night to open presents
haha actually i was quite ok with it
i didnt really need to open them
not like i received presents from ministers or sth (;
hahaha kidding

yupp. so then went online again to settle some ncc stuff with qiying
hais. from now on its gna be bussssy.
ltr will have to go to victoria, for musical
got a few smses to send to people to settle more stuff
then when musical ends,
we'll have to go return props to church
so i'll make a bet that it'll be at least 12.30am when we reach home
tsk. then i have to burn the songs into a cd and make some notes
sleep at dunno what time
then the tmr, 26, meet qiying. and maybe jo at school
settle more stuff!
then when i get time in the aftn, i think im gna do my hw
zzz. or do more ncc stuff, if we're still not done
or perfect it.
then 27,28 is filled with ncc sec 1 orientation
so im left with, 29, 30 ,31 ,1,2
to do my lit and chemistry. ahhh.
then minus like about 1 or 2 days for church plus gg out
): gaaaah.
okok. nvm better than nothing to do.
thats even worse =/
(:

haha so, ytd was spent at vic too
i like that place. its so huge i get to run around
i dont like staying still ):
haha but some parts are creepy,
i dragged my sis all over the place ahhaha!
followed all staircases.(: up.
haha so i didnt discover the basement myself.
only when we had dinner

yeaa and we went there in a lorry. which most probably we'll be going in again today =.=
zzz. sit at the back of the lorry for the whole world to see.
haha we waved at certain people
but only 1 guy waved back to us at kim san leng there, in his car haha!
its hot in the back , when we're not moving =/
and dirty. eeyer.
haha we took photos!

oops this was meant to be a quick short post.
oh well.
haha cyaa!
loves

i'm not in love ;
12:13 PM;

Monday, December 24, 2007

life is going to give you shit
and its not everyday you see something you want
falling out of the sky.
so when you see it,
you might as well do all you can to get it
if you want it. then grab it
when you dont get it,
you deserve to be the unhappiest person on the world at that moment
i might not be that old,
but im old enough to know that the world is full of shit
cause'
what you see is not what you get.
Being a saint doesnt mean you're going to be the richest person on earth
be famous, wealthy and happy
have everything you want.
it could mean that the road ahead of you could be dumped with obstacles
and horrible events.
life's a jackpot machine.
the horrid things that come after you do a good thing
could just overpower a blessing you got
its not always a week of happily ever after events after doing a day of good deeds
seems to me each good thing has a side effect.
just how bad it is.
thats just how weird our universe is.
i wonder.

i'm not in love ;
11:14 AM;

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

zz. what exactly is the point of having a phone.
if people are just going to reply like 1 or 2/3 of my smses/??!!

i'm not in love ;
1:49 PM;


waa
i do notnotnot want to leave the house!
even for spanish!
even if im going to die being bored here
waaaaaaaa.

i just dont feel like going out
ahhh
i dont feel like going anywhere):
and its not like my spanish class has some hot guy to motivate me
to go. DD: [hahakidding] poof. more like the other way round man,

today its just gonna me me and nikki
oh CRAP. xmas card. ahh. sian.
think ltr just go to popular to get one,
gah. DDDD:

i dont even know what i have to do
i just know im going to be running out of time to do my homework
ahhh, give me a laptop. i promise i'll do it ((:
i just cant do work at home):
helppp

i'm not in love ;
12:38 PM;

Monday, December 17, 2007

waaa i dont wanna be sick anymoreee
not this kind of sick anw
safbsdknf
im freezing to death
and my head it burning
and every word i spit out hurts ))):
helpppppp

i'm not in love ;
10:35 PM;


gahh. i know im gna fall sick soon
and its always the same
ulcers, sorethroat, fever
grrrrrr
im going to lose my voice soon ):

and theres always this horrible sore, painful feeling at the back of my throat/nose
which makes it hard for me to speak):
waaa

hais theres spanish tmr
and i still havent memorised stuff
zz.

thanks to my sis i always bathe so late):
just now come out of the bathroom, i was shivering
i hate it when that happens like some cold lightning strikes down your back
sseeesh dont know why so cold

hais k another random post.
post ltr
cya

i'm not in love ;
9:50 PM;


i should get the number 1 award for best procrastinator );

ok. im supposed to go buy presents for aida today.
decided to go out at 1.
postponed to 1.30
1.45- was making up my mind to get out of the house by 2.
2pm. starts raining and i call mum to get the present at her workplace.
seesh.

ok then planned to try finish last lit qn today
wahh. now its 4.40 and im still not done.
blogging, reading xiaxue's blog(i shock myself) and eating a slice
of a secret recipe cake.
great. nice weather. to be relaxing
;afksbfdfs helpp. i cant study in this kind of environment):

hais. ok i just finished my cake.
zz. i just cant make myself eat slowwwwly.
i either dont chew or swallow quickly
and i think the jazz song playing away on my itunes
is contributing to my comfort and laziness.
ahhhh. i really need to update my songs.
why did i import that jazz cd into itunes. crapcrapcrap.

and i dont know why im blogging
cause alll this is rubbish.
but not like its being read anyway
isit. idk
oh well
8 more days to xmas
falalalala lalalala
get me in the xmas mood someone

k cya

i'm not in love ;
4:24 PM;

Sunday, December 16, 2007

hello

haha ok im bored. so im here
but its not that bad today
hm, i think today is one of my better days(:



oh. anw.
haha cause i always seem not to be able to sleep
so sometimes. on the good days with my sis
we'll chat. o.o
haha kay
then last night we were talking about hols
but then specifically hols spent with friends xD
): wish i could have them again
maybe i'll be happyhappyhappy again like i was(:

aha oh. its weird how i rmb fractions of the holiday
and my sis rmbs the other fraction
we dont rmb what the other rmbs.
okaay, was that confusing? haha sorry


yea ok
hm lets see.
oh gentingg. went with dad's colleague and his family
2 sons 1 daughter. i only rmb the sons and my sis only rmbs the daughter
hahha i just dont rmb her face. just the room o.<>

ok that was like. a longlong time ago/ p5?
it was fun anw.(: that was where i first got dragged towards a
scary, huge, upside down roller coaster.
but most fortunately i managed to escape 3 people pulling me
gosh. i think. haha they dragged me right up to the queue leh
waa. i got 3 offers for accompaniment for the ride(;
but it didnt overcome the fear anw =.=
oh then we were also playing away in the hotel room
hahaa. jumping on the beds with lights off and everything
oh. that was where my sis fell off the bed hahaha and we couldnt find her

haha kk aww. i want back that holiday
oh then another one was with uncle david's family((:
when my dad had his car he would lead us to m'sia
to some golf course i think
haha but then ah. somehow i can only rmb.
the golf course.
uncle david.
the nice huge big rocky jacuzzi.
and the toilet. the public one.
which was nice. and huge too.
HAHAHA. ok.
anw its weird that i cant rmb the people o.o
auntywanyi/daryl/brendan/sabrina is like gone from the memory
haha oops.
oh then there were the times we stayed over at their ulu house =.=
haha by the time you walk to their house you're all sweaty.
we'll ride that. er. metal scooter thingy up and down the houses(=
race each other, then we'll eat dinner on the porch
at the wooden table. the "children" only
haha cept' daryl. poo ah. he was always at the dinner table with the adults
oh then matresses will be laid out on the floor
me, sab and sis would sleep on it
and the guys would be on the bunk bed the 3 share.
tsk. haha in the super huge room. haiyo.
hahhaa
waa. i still want to stay over at their house
but now we sleep in the guest room. hmm too big alr? haha
ohwell but nowdays like so busy lidat
ahh i dont want to go into sec 3 laaa
i want to go back to pri school
ahh oh god
zz ):





then the latest hol was with aunty ann and uncle michael
to vietnam(: haha it was fun
but it would be nicer if there were other kids our age ):
cause right.. since me and my sis no cousins
so lonely
then we only see sumin etc during cny )): like once a year
gosh. andd. we dont even communicate with oldest bro.
he's like always in his own world.. somewhere..
heh. aiya maybe just age gap too big.
oh then there'll be 2 guys. dunno whose sons
[wait am i related to them? pfft =.=]
they say hi. but then we dont communicate either
=/ i think they just talk to that bro
haishaishais haha ohwell
ohoh. then other relative is aunty lydia's family
gary and er. um. ahh shits haha forgot her name! mindblockk
uhhohh., but then i think shes cool(:
and pretty too (=
aha i think gary's room is cool
but he really should take care of his hearing man.
a whole drumset plus whatnot in your room is not exactly good for the ears
haishaishais. but then again. we dont communicate with them
we see them almost once a year too
unless aunty lydia brings them to church or sth
and plus age gap
pfft

oh plus my many unknown nephew and necies
my goodness. they're all older than me somemore
i think i could walk past them on the streets and not know we're related
well. i dont even know them anw. cept the one who i went to his wedding
i cant even rmb his face now =.=
ahh. why lidat
i think i should dedicate 2 months to my family tree
and go find all my relatives
o.O hais

oops. looks like i did it again
so long.
or maybe its because i keep 'entering' x/ haha
i dont like typing in paragraph kind
haha kay. wow. looks like i have done loads of reminiscing
happy nice memories. wish i could save more new ones
oh. haha we realised last night that the familes we go for hols with
have like 2 guys 1 girl. for children
haha. ok random fact
hais i wonder if we'll do all that anytime soon
dont think so ):
waa. breaks my heart
kay. going to get busy tmr
cyacya
nightss
9 more days to xmas!

bye.poof.

i'm not in love ;
10:07 PM;

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

i need to get outoutoutoutout
get busy
and stop thinking

i need to run around
be occupied
have a goal, an aim

i need to have a task
a plan, a schedule
be ordered around

i really. need to stop thinking.
its all running wild
i need to stop feeling.
its piercing and hurting



im hungry.
sigh

i'm not in love ;
10:12 PM;


you know,

there are so many methods to kill a person.

but the worst method is when the person is still alive

i'm not in love ;
8:59 PM;

Sunday, December 09, 2007

someone. please push me in front of an incoming train
or shoot me.
take your pick.

thanks in advance

i'm not in love ;
4:55 PM;

Saturday, December 08, 2007

ZZ.
science.
is.
senseless. and illogical.
to me anyway.
pffffffffft.
seriously. how am i supposed to know what happenes to the 2 gases when they mix!?
you're supposed to tell me.
and if they have the same number of molecules how on earth am i supposed to know why one volume is greater than the other.
goshgoshgosh. grrr.

AND.
why on earth. are we still doing freaking particles since we started on it in p3!?!?!?!?!?!?!
hello?? what is MOE trying to do. im tired of explaining on what kind of movement they are having right now. i really dont care. as long as i still have oxygen to breathe in.
oh god oh god oh god

sience is terrible.
sciences are drepressants
science is giving me a headache ):

save me. someone.
D=
hais.

i'm not in love ;
11:43 PM;

Wednesday, December 05, 2007

hais okok
im so frigging bored
that i have decided to come here
and blog about last night =.=

okk. well, last night me and nat was super bored
i was bored to the point of commiting suicide, yelling, and going mad
so we decided to meet. at caltex
the one at acs
pfft i was walked about 1bustop distance when nat told me not to walk
so i crossed the overhead bridge, getting freaked out and quickening my pace on the way
took the first bus i saw and went on.

the bus went so fast i couldnt see the stops properly
so i missed the stop.
so i walked back one stop.
reached the correct busstop when nat said she saw me
so waited for her
and squealed in delight and relief when i saw her =.=
[it was scary ok. and we both, i realised, had tried to pull our fbts as low as possible]
(; then we walked together to caltex

bought maggie mee and a can of drink
sat there and ate. and nat made her soup so hot she drank my drink as well
zz haha. but its okayy(:
haha ok fastforward [talktalkeateaticecreams]
then parents came home
and wanted me to go back too.
and my mum said wait no bus
scare me. i was halfway eating my icecream
so we quickly cleared up
then i went on my way to the busstop
worrying the hell out about whether there would still be buses
yupp. have. till 12+ =.= it was about 11.30+
sian. nat live so near hahaah.
and they have to close my stupid shell down.
zz ):

kk end of story. oh we took pictures too.
ok goodnight
haha(:
bye<3

my hands are getting colder and colder
its temperature is dropping. o.O dunno why

i'm not in love ;
10:04 PM;

Monday, December 03, 2007

hello (:
ahah ok im sorry la.
i know i havent been posting for a longgggg time.
plus now i cant even be bothered to reply on my tagboard.
anyway boredom is eating into me
x/
its like even if theres anything to be happy or sad
the impact is like. greatly reduced. so basically
i dont feel much emotion. =XXX
helpp im going to become a robot
ok erm to make my post a little more interesting
for the kind souls who actually reads my blog.
i wanted to do this a longlong time ago.
say, mid oct haha. sorry ok anw its gna be some facts about vietnam
amazingly i decided to do this one late night at the hotel hahahha xD
okayyys
1) the food stalls at the markets are really dirty
if theres no place to sit at the tiny counters,
they put a silver metal tray on those red plastic stools that comes up to yr thigh
and puts another shorter stool beside it. which is about. 30 cm high. =.=
and you have to squeeze to one side so theres actually enough space for other customers to walk through o.O
yea, so there are like baby cockroaches crawling about >.<>
2) its easier to negotiate prices with an auntie rather than a young adult.
if you try that with them, they'll most likely give you a glare and ignore you
if you want to continue trying to haggle prices. hais.
3) ohoh, veryyyyyy little people use cars. the ratio of cars to motorbikes
is about. erm. 1:100 really. and a family of five can sit on ONE bike.
yea. seriously. child, adult, child,child adult.
4) the people there dont say excuse me. yea, like lets say in the market,
if they are carrying huge boxes or trays of food, they'll either grunt or shout out some
noise or they will just 'helpfully give you a good noticeable nudge with whatever with they're
holding. applies more the to the goods side. hais. sadcase
5) oh yes, beware of those low hanging manymany LIVE cables over your head.
there are some parts where they can hang as many as like 30+ overhead.
tsk dangerous. highly.
6) although their streets may not be that clean. their parks are.
can be said as outstanding. there are many sculptures. some parks
and everyplant is like. green green. very green.
and the bushes are well cut. and maintained
and they even water the grass! clapclapclap
7) oh um. girls in hair saloons wear like reall short skirts and low cut tops
to attract customers i guess. they make you think like they do like
erm., that kind of service. and massage and all that
but actually they are normal la. normal usual saloons.
8) ok lastly , they tie longg thin branches to poles for the sweeper's brooms
haha looks to me it works quite well. its a huge bunch.
ok have to go off to bed now! haha hope you enjoyed my post.
[im talking to dunno who =.=]
OK BYEE!

i'm not in love ;
10:53 PM;