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Sunday, April 27, 2008

i need to disinfect & sterilize my room. seriously

i'm not in love ;
7:14 PM;

Saturday, April 26, 2008

i seriously cant stand singaporean shows/movies/dramas

some are okay la. But some its like, those about money or the family very poor thing or what shit. then cry here cry there, scream yell shout, everyone chaotic, going mad. all over some stupid matter. and it all makes you want to walk out of wherever you're watching it. And you do.

argh. ok family watching some singapore movie, forgot the title but about some guy who won 2 i think, 2 million dollars. And then got a heart attack and died. and then the relatives, family members, going all mad about money, lack of money. this pregnant woman getting stressed up and going mad, shouting, yelling. and the husband yells back vulgarities at her. and you see her wanting to faint, so tired, but still looking after funeral stuff and all that. and then screams at maid over funeral money, lost 500 bucks, turns out it was with some other relative.

walao. how happy can you get watching this kind of show. and its all like consecutive. yuck. give us a break la. theres a limit to watching women scream for a prolonged period. so i walked out of the room and thus im back here. gahh. i think i will stick to american shows. And korean. I know theres like all the drama and crying, but hello i actually feel sympathetic.

sigh. i think im better off doing my homework

ttyl,
<3 val

i'm not in love ;
9:16 PM;


i am SO tempted to sleep.
haha

went to parents room to eat oranges and fruits.
then when i came back, coincidentally my laptop (itunes was on) played the line 'turn out the lamp lights...." haha from some jazz song. and then cause just now daddy off the lights of the room, but only the desk light was on. which is yellow. And the room is so cold thanks to the aircon. so ah.

wa so nice can, dim, jazz playing, cold. Oh man. Okay i should stop making myself want to sleep. haha okay i shall go back to my suff.

Cya!
<3, val

i'm not in love ;
8:03 PM;


i feel abused.

argh haha im not abused la. just that my bones are aching. no idea why
usually after ncc its just muscle ache but this time it feels like i got a good whacking. ouch. haha i'll tell you where, shoulders, arm, back. i cant scratch my back! boohoo rheumatism?? HAHA

haha okay. maybe i should really fix my career on psychology. With our education system, im sure many kids are depressed and stressed. huh. i am. =.= Of course i can handle my time and finish my work, of course i could study. i DO have enough time. But hello, where would my social life and leisure time go? im sure it would be highly minimised. wouldnt that equate to adults working odd jobs and overtime?

sigh. haha sorry for ranting =/ im just so tired ):
Anyway i've been in SC for 8 1/2 years? Nikki has been here for 2 1/2 years. And we both feel the same liberation the moment we step out of school. HAH. haha ahh

=xxx okok i shall stop talking about school
guess my bad mood is due to my bleak and boring breakfast seeing that mummy and daddy didnt buy food back after marketing ): And seeing that food is my like piority, its pretty devastating and got me into a pretty crappy mood. sigh. and i've been eating shitfood in school (oopsididntmeanit) for so long. AHH mad.

i have no idea how to destress. piano doesnt seem to be helping anymore ):

cya,
val

i'm not in love ;
11:40 AM;

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

If you go away
You will see me cry
Don't you let me go baby
Don't you let me down
늘 함께 있어도 더 가깝지 않은
어떤 의미도 없는 진부한 사랑
sigh. starching now.
sigh. today my brain is going to info overload.
okok. starch till 9?
chem till 10
gsk/ifc till 10.30
chem till 11
hah
ahah okay very good (:
HOPEFULLY i stick to it.
starch takes awfully long to harden ):
is there some enzyme that can speed it up??
=/

i'm not in love ;
8:32 PM;


heyy~!

Today. was. erm. pretty fast la i guess. haha i love weds. 4 lessons and 2 blocks are taken up by assembly and ce. Then 1 hr recess(: Except that i have to stay back for editorial stuff. oh well.
In the span of like. erm. 5 days i have conducted 2 interviews. HAH.

Anyway yea, haha Assembly was interesting. talk on like cyber wellness =.= Haha the guy who was talking was being lame and gay so we laughed pretty much haha. A lot in fact (x Then Ce on advising on some bgr. hahaha. and lit was interesting. some groups were so funny la. Haha songs and acting and what not (x

The interview didnt go that well, but was fine i guess. lack of words. ah!

Okay so now im home, today have to study for chem, gsk(ncc), ifc(ncc), starch uniform(ncc) =/ And every night im dead beat. sigh. i seriously need some time management help. haha. =X

Then if i feel like then i do chem, amath and er. eng hw i guess o.O (:

okay!
pray that God expands my time. (:
haha

ttyl!
<3, val

p.s gossip girl ep 14 is out! woots go watch<3

i'm not in love ;
4:23 PM;

Monday, April 21, 2008

haha

okay today was kinda funny/okay/cool/tiring
haha now im feeling disgusting tho. just done 5 items for napfa.

The morning was quite boring. hur. lit and chem. went for break then pe. haha. yay. quite fun. did standing broad jump for napfa. wahaha i got 185. thank goodness. but next year have to get 186 =/ ok then crapped and played around with nikki. Haha after that was bio. It was a pretty fun lesson (; i guess. even tho the parasites part grossed me out. pork tapeworm. ewww.

Haha after recess was double period chinese, those extra lessons one. haha that was when all the fun started. like 10 mins into lesson, cheryl suddenly screamed and ran like 1m away from her desk. and shouted " a cockroach! a really large one!" and the whole other side of the class was like in chaos =.= i was more interested than scared at first actually. ahaha. whereas nikki continued looking and doing some stuff on her paper O.O i have no idea why she was so calm about it HAHAHA. then nicole went over and tried to use the broom and hit the curtains so it would drop out and jaclyn could catch it. HAHA. it was a super funny scene cause she was like shouting all over and beating the curtain all over as well. oh HAHAH they sprayed like strawberry perfume thingy at the curtain too to like lure the cockroach out HAHAHA. anw there was some bits where everyone saw the cockroach running out and then running back in =.= and during those bits everyone screamed. hhahaa. then finally the cockroach dropped down and then the WHOLE class was in chaos. this time nikki got scared and ran out of the class with a few people. ahaha. at first we were crowding at the door. which was closed. then laoshi was like 'aiya chu qu la chu qu la (go out la go out la)" hahaha damn funny so we ran out. the cockroach was huge and gross lor ewww. HAHHA but then everyone started laughing so much cause nicole broke the broom while hitting the cockroach. And then she started stamping the floor so many times it was such a comical scene.

Okay then had some chinese debate thing. haha some parts was damn funny. cause everyone trying to translate their thoughts into chinese. but after awhile it got pretty bothersome.=/

Then it was amath. supposed to be free period but mr tee came in. sigh. ahaha. okay after that went off with nikki to orchard. ate 2 donuts and a sugarcane drink. hah. nice but damn full. haha wrong choice. today ate like loads. dunno why=.=
then rushed back to school for napfa tests. at first nikki did the sit ups. but then halfway too full couldnt do so i did. so miss our class turn. haha ok i think i typed too much alr.
then did sit and reached. =/ this morning could do 51 but later only 49.5 argh. =/ did inclined pull ups. 17 haha. as usual. shuttle run, amazingly this year i improved to a B. HAHA. amazing hahha. my shuttle run is usually like shit. =.=

After that went back to class get stuff. and seemed like everyone was on high. hahaha. especially slyvia. HAHA shes damn cute la. salome and slyvia spraying like perfumes/deodorants/dunno what all around. hahaa so the air was like a strong mix of strawberry and er. lavender? haha dunno something purple. haha

okay walked home, sweaty. hur. haha ok gna bathe now! then photocopy chem notes. sigh. anyone wants to contribute to my chem notes?? haha they're like all missing ):

okie dokie!
tata!
<3, val

i'm not in love ;
5:12 PM;

Sunday, April 20, 2008

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

FREAK. ive got an effing headache. and mum and sis outside make such a huge racket. and i have things to get ready for. kdsfndfsdfs

this is a nightmare.
wksandas

im in the bad mood of the century.
argh let me bury myself in a hole and die.

i'm not in love ;
9:12 PM;


wa.

okay. super super tired and moody. hur. still not enough rest. Today dont have enough energy to post a super long detailed post about carnival and all but i shall do a summary. (:

Day before carnival, from 8+pm started doing bubble tea pearls. All 6 kg. and you know, they expand. hah. so cant cook so much at one time =.= Thus, i made pearls from like 8+ to 1am. wonderful. It includes washing up. Then carnival was super busy. Woke up at 6am. hah 5 hours of sleep. Then nikki and salome came over. Mummy helped to bring stuff over(: Then woohoo. my dear bubble tea sold so well. wahhaa. but then we still have like loads of syrup =.= ok. by the time we finished clearing up maybe about 615pm? oh yea halfway thru had to runnnnnnn home and get a POT of (5kg?) MORE pearls. hah. okay.
Came home, mummy decided too late to go fetch daddy from airport and we were tired so just stay at home. went to sleep at about 9+pm
Woke up at erm. 9.15? went to church for duty. was going to fall asleep. hah. after that went for lunch and went to cut hair. the nice hairdresser helped to do temporary curls for me after the haircut. wahha. ok came home, watched dream girls ( a whole lot of singing. too much for me T.T) okay then ate dinner. And had some mini webcamming session with hongkong relatives. wahha. with singaporean relatives here. HAHA. okay
Then came up. Realised had to type out all the details for sponsors from carnival and send to mrs logan. sigh. with a rocking headache it didnt seem very fun. Halfway nikki came online, sent the interview to me to edit. Which got me even more depressed. So sian la. its an interviewwwww. Anyone knows how to edit. and print! Hello workload not divided properly, mrs. Just cause we're the only people you know well doesnt mean you just ask us to do can. WALAO. Anyway super tired with the aftereffects of carnival. So means super cranky and moody and tired. and with a headache. ZZ thus got pretty snappy at the prospect of editing a one hour interview.

Okay, i am about. to. K.O. and i have about 10001 things to do. Can i pray that some main waterpipe bursts at the schl tmr?
ok i guess not. argh. school should be cancelled.
fine.

TTYL!
<3 val

i'm not in love ;
8:49 PM;

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

BLAH. >:(

i'm not in love ;
10:11 PM;


wa

i swear i got stomach muscle strain again. Hello!? something is very wrong with NAPFA. Walao. i laugh pain, sneeze also pain, do sit up also pain, do crunches also pain, lean forward also pain. omg. im going to just. split apart.
hah

okay. bye back to work
sigh

i'm not in love ;
6:51 PM;


woahwoahwoah

Okay i have no idea why suddenly im so busy. Okay i know why. Anyway everything suddenly seems to be coming at one time and there are just too many jobs. Haha so im taking this quick break to like er. rest. haha and get back to work =.=

Damn busy these few days thanks to carnival. but its fun i guess (x Anyway just now was in the bus with nikki when phoon huat called. The bubble tea supplier. I thought they not gonna sponsor us anymore. Cause i like emailed 2 days ago? and carnival is so soon. Anyway turns out they gna sponsor us (x yesyesyes. haha We're gonna be soo busy. So tomorrow gonna collect bubble tea stuff and ice cream. Oh man, run around singapore. And one jar of syrup is like 6kg. OMG. omg. how to carry! ahh. die. haha =x

ZZ. okay so now i gotta send out an email back to yeos to settle the delivery stuff, then find the location of that phoon huat at the isolated area of jurong east, and then and then, oh send the donut factory vouchers to gilda, then make more posters for our stall plus bubble tea, then think of decorations and make some for our stall on saturday. Oh man, friday is gonna be buuussssy man. shucks

have to make the huge load of bubble tea, set up store, deco, omg. put up posters. ahhhhhh
okok think one thing at a time. sigh which is alot of stuff alr

okay back to work T.T

tata!

i'm not in love ;
5:33 PM;

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

heyhey!

haha its been quite fun, though tiring
so far spent these 2 days making posters and banners. haha. messing around with brushes on photoshop. Anyway,, i made this poster for our stall, CoolBox. Haha okay, so decided to give it a sweet look. And its really pretty la hahaa.

Yup. So i went to ask my mum to get opinions

me: Hey mummy, isnt this pretty(:
mum: hmm? yea..
mum: looks like sanitary pad advertiesment
me: T.T weii!!!
mum: yes what. see, box, is like the box containing it, then cool means the pad very cooling. New generation of sanitary pads ah.
me: omg..
sis: HAHAHA yeayeayea (urgh still agree =.=)

haha whatever. Oh well, back to posters. i've currently got a fascination and love with pastel colours hee. hopefully sleep before 11. Hah. hopefully. zz. got SS test tmr ): sighsigh. newspapers galore. Okay!

TTYL!!
<3, Val

i'm not in love ;
10:08 PM;

Monday, April 14, 2008

argh. my sis wore my uniform AGAIN. shit her.
fine. lets not care about that for now.

Today was hm. okay i guess. haha a bonus made up for the long day because _____________.
hee(: Lessons today was sucky. double eng and chem can. y-u-c-k yuck. plain sucky.

boring. haaha then realised have to stay back for chinese test paper one. and i got so depressed. argh. staying back is terrible can. you have no idea. haha okay then the chinese test wasnt too bad. Wa i did my gong han like damn fast can. haha fastest ever i think. and then did essay. hm i double checked. seeing i had like 30 mins left =.= and i realised i could read what i wrote in like 2 mins. hah.3 sides. not very long. oh well. hope im not off point =X

haha okay then went with nikki to orchard. bought donuts, sugarcane, then went to popular to replenish my fullscap. hm. and as usual my bus came like, haha just in time for me. cool man. its been doing that quite often now. hahaa. sorry nikki! =x haha gotta leave her there earlier. then it was raining so had to walk home in it. sigh. my poor hair.

okay im back home now! so post ltr

ttyl!
<3, val (:

i'm not in love ;
6:00 PM;

Friday, April 11, 2008

Donuts are the love.
Especially from Dippin' Donuts can. Always buy the mochiatto one. damn nice. Like white chocolate (which i usually hate) and mocha powder on top. Its nice cause the bitterness of the powder balances out with the white chocolate <3 Haha. Today the aunty at the store, who apparently knows us quite well alr, decided to let me and nikki try a free donut. Haha to change our taste since we keep buying the same thing. o.O So this time is white chocolate and almond on top. Wa. supppper nice too. Even nicer<3

Oohlala. im growing fat. haha. shucks. Its like irresistable. ack. And i think it like, whats that word? oh yea. enhances my sweet tooth. I really used to abhore white chocolate lor. couldnt stand it. Super sweet. The only chocolates i would eat is dark chocolate or not so sweet milk chocolate. ahh. haha Aiya but now i think still wont eat like a chunk of white chocolate, but donuts are okay! (: Rocks.

Waha just did such a long post on donuts. They should endorse me ^.^ haha kidding.

Today was not a bad day (: Haha. Looking forward to the end of Friday! Weehoo. Haha. Okay. Everyone was saying TGIF

Anyway tonight have to go for cell ): Then tashka not coming ): So sad la. Then i have to be alone. Tashkaaaaaaaaaa! grr. dont even know if i should go.

oops. haha okay i wrote the above like 2 hrs ago.
I fell asleep =.=

Kk, i shall go now
<3, val

i'm not in love ;
4:00 PM;

Wednesday, April 09, 2008

im sorry im so selfish
i dont want to live to see you become like this because my heart would break as i watch you grow day by day

i'm not in love ;
9:42 PM;


sighsigh

this is bad. pe teachers should make it compulsory to stretch before doing any activities. zz. this mon we had pe. then practiced for napfa. and as usual didnt stretch. Thus, now i have ruptured stomach muscles while nikki has quadriceps strain. Sigh. Terrible can. Sitting is okay. But when i slouch i feel like got stomach pain. Some dull pain. Then when i hug my knees, even duller pain. When im in crunches position, theres a sharper aching pain. When i do crunches, pain like shit. =.=

Hah. Sigh anyway today was pretty fun (: Esp during CE. Okay fine. only during ce. haha. Everyone was rushing around and calling sponsors for the carnival. CoolCool (: Hahaa. Makes me so excited for it.

10 more days! i should start counting down =D. Okay better not. We're not exactly 100% prepared =S Grr.

Okay. back to doing nothing!
haha byebye!

<3,val

i'm not in love ;
8:41 PM;

Monday, April 07, 2008

okay. i am trying. very. hard. to memorise the functions. of water, carbohydrates, fats and proteins. God help me T.T waaaaaaa. This is horrible. First bio test i start late in studying. BOO. Lets hope i rmb tmr. Ack.

I think my method is a little wrong. but whatever. Hahah. Im lying down on the floor. With head on pillow. And closing my eyes and saying out what i can remember on my list of functions. Can everything just have a specific function!?!!. Pfft. I know our body is so wonderful and all that with all the different functions of each cell. But why is that so that my brain has like limited functions for the part reserved for memory. Hurr.

Sigh. Okay. back to my darling list of functions. Do you think if i treat it nicer i can remember better? o.O Okay. Talking crap. Ignore.

TTYL!
<3, val

i'm not in love ;
8:12 PM;


school is taxing. ):
its draining all my energy ):

i'm not in love ;
5:12 PM;

Sunday, April 06, 2008

wa. this is horrible.
im so terribly bored. okay, i'll blog. hah. haha i think the views of my blog is kinda ridiculous seeing how dead my blog is. but nevermind! i shall revive it (:

okay. friday. sports day aka. tiring day.
(okay i'll attempt starting my sentences with capital letters. is it hard to read if i dont put capital letters? o.O )

Woke at 4.45am. Hah. Super early. But guess that gave me just nice time. Took a long time to do my hair. As usual. >.o My hair is unfortunately quite rebellious. Got out of the house at like 5.45.
Zzz. Okay, and then, i waited. And waited. And waited. And waited for the bus. And prayed along. Hoping for the chance that it might come early. Its ridiculous can. I was waiting at RTC busstop, where there was an obvious lack of buses, whereas the opposite side had a pretty normal bus flow. Grrrr. irritating. So, after about a few failed attempts of trying to hail a taxi, I managed to get one. Waste money =.= But i guess it's better seeing i wont have to walk my 700m to the stadium. Hah.

And overall, sports day was... ... tiring. Back breaking. Hot. Mad. I guess it was the worst sports day i've ever been through. ): The waiting at the field was expected la. Even though it was longer thanks to all the olympic stuff. Then. After that we took our bags in, and realised NCC had no space to sit. Also meaning that we were forgotten in the seating plan. I was pretty pissed at that. Hello, okay fine, i dont really mind that NCC does the school a service at every sports day without acknowledgement(of our hardwork), but excuse me, we're like part of the school. >:( Zzz. It was mean can. So we had to leave our bags outside the stadium and sit outside. when we had our breaks. Missing out on like, the main purpose of sports day =.= Not that that really matters but it made me feel that we were treated like some security company instead of a CCA offering a service.

Okay, so my first duty, was to suntan. Haha okay im kidding. It was to guard the entrance to the competitor's shed and track, and only allow people who were competing in. Anyway, in the morning at like 9.15 am, that is sort of one of the horrible spots to do guard duty. I was roasting myself =.= But Staff came down to tell us we could go drink water from the water cooler any time. Haha. Which i did twice. Anyway, that jobs' pretty confusing too. You dont really know whos competing and whose not. So i just asked all those who were wearing skirts not to go in. Haha and they really werent competing so. Good. (: Time passed hmm. Relatively fast. Seeing the amount of people i had to stop going in (even though after awhile i couldnt do much seeing they walked in pretty fast T.T ) Also, class people came and entertained me for abit. Haha awww. So nice. Slyvia, natalie, gladys and a few more ppl (sorry if i dont rmb x/) were trying to shade me from the sun. And helping to cool me down. Haha. so sweet. But unfortunately, i dont think i could accept their efforts, haha seeing i was on duty. And i couldnt talk too. Sorry! =/ But thanks to everyone! (: <33! Haha, hmm. after awhile i think (and i'm pretty sure) i became entertainment as Nicole Chan starting snapping away her camera at me. Hah. Hahah. Nicole you mean girl! tsk. haha jk.

Haha okay if im gna post somemore it's gna be about 2k words im sure =.= seeing the amount of detail i put in. Haha! Okay so in between rested only for awhile =/ seeing that there were many stuff to settle and unexpected stuff that cropped up. And then, there was also the unexpected new duty that came up (and also an event that pissed me off). Some of us had to go guard the track. So that people would not go onto it and collide into runners or whatever. However, by the time we went on, there wasn't any more events. So we pretty much stood there for nothing. And. the person who asked us to stand there didn't feel it neccessary to call us off either. (Hello, We're made of veins and nerves, not metal or wood. ) Since i didnt feel that tired after my other duties i offered to go help with this new one. Which followed straight into making the cordon for the ending of the meet. Which was when my back and feet started taking a toll on me =x Plus we had to stand around the flame. And soot kept flying all over. kdfksdjnfds That was irritating. At first i thought they were flies or something. Hahaha.

At the end we did company cheer <3 , and then were rushed off. Seeing that RGS had to come in. Haha, yay, (maybe it was a reward not doing arial cleaning for our hardwork) Took a few pictures and i had to rush off.

And the rest of the day? Was spent traveling around Singapore. Haha. I think i did a marathon on that day okay. After i was done, spent erm. around 25 mins traveling to Jurong. My goodness. That place. Is so. Far. Its like on the edge of Singapore. And yet. Everyone seems to be there. Crowded like anything. My goodness. Went to find platoonmates at ice skating ring. Haha. So they skated for around 30+ more mins while i went to sit and study Bio (failed attempt). I think i spent much of the time looking at this girl who was presumably taking skating lessons. Felt pretty sorry for her seeing most of the time she looked like she was about to cry, while the coach just kept pushing her on. ( And i swear the coach looked like he was molesting her while trying to teach her some moves okay T.T Goodness)

Went to take neoprints and stuff. Which took a pretty long time., Haha. So didnt really have much time, so i just bought a tea egg and 2 sausages for dinner. And then. rushed off. back to church for cell group. =/ Which took me. Hah. 1hr. Wonderful. So long. And btw, on all my rides i had to stand up seeing that they were always full. So suay can. >: ( And i was super tired alr. Supposed to meet tashka first, but i guess i was abit late so she went first. Sorry! Grrr. I tell you, when im early for cell, they start late. When im late (which is not very late), they start early. !?!?! Is there a conspiracy? Haha

Kay, cell wasnt so bad. Haha. Maybe i should go more often. It seems like some sort of entertainment. Tsk. Some moments are so full of crap and nonsense can. Haha. Quite a difference from school =/ However, most of the time when im at cell, im pretty tired. So half of the time i dont have the energy to smile. Which sucks. Cause everyone's laughing and you cant even smile properly. Oh right. Then. because of NAT's paper bag which she gave me to put my boots in, Thea went to say "why did you use a bra shop for your paper bag" Hah. Haha. and then. hhaha. okay i shant say. Apparently caused some sensation, which stopped me from giving an explanation. But then. i used it cause it was a paper bag? Precisely. Haha. Anyway the paper bag is nice(: It's white. And. i do not buy bras from la senza. HAHA. maybe i will? One day. Haha Whatever.

Anyway met Daddy and Mummy after cell and went straight home. (: Llalaa. my goodness. Okay i planned to blog about fri,sat,and sun. And i fail, as usual =.= Grr why do i have to post so much. Anyway, school tmr, oral tmr. Sadcase ): Okay hope i do well. Gotta go sleep now!

Cyaa!
<333,
val(:

i'm not in love ;
10:00 PM;