I'm Not In Love

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

i rock. like seriously man.

i opened my tys, i closed it.
i slept at 2+, woke up at 7.38
halfway, i saw chloe talking to me on msn. i replied 'kk' and went back to sleep. just catching bits of info.
ate at 7+. watched tv till 8.
came up, slacked on the com till 10.
went to bathe. so late.
and now at 11.52,
im blogging and sorta playing maple
due to boredom and the understanding that i will not be able to sleep.
and whereby i will repeat the cycle tmr of sleeping in class

ahhhh
i suck. no one can beat me man.

i'm not in love ;
11:51 PM;

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

i am declaring myself mad by being here. at 11.45pm. and having to wake up at 545 tmr.
what is wrong with me. ahh well. when im busy i sleep at 12.30/1. when im not, i still have to sleep at earliest 12. i swear something is wrong.

anw. today. was pretty cool. hahah it zoomed past quite fast. i think thanks to chinese test. but no thanks that it was so freaking hard. okay i think i could do maybe a bit better, but whats up with the very little time! i mean thats reserved for ss, history and literature lah.

after school..wahah. okay some stupid event happened. which made me feel stunned/ashamed/weird/embarrased. but oh well. dont think i can do much about it. haha the description is long and im running out of time so you can just come ask me if you wanna know.

hmm. so after schl went to lunch and talked. and talked. and talked somemore! with dearest nikki. wahaha. (her ego is gna be boosted even more with this (; ) haha it was fun and interesting la. we were talking about past present future. okay actually i think 80% of it was about past. hahah and i loved every minute. it rocks to just sit there and talk with your best friend and be so carefree knowing you dont have a maaajor test nearby. and homework lurking around.

after that went to horrible toa payoh for a hm. long while. haha 1 hr? went to buy some stuff, and helped nikki buy her pen. halfway thru, smsed nat and realised i was supposed to be in school T.T gah. haha so still continued doing my stuff. since she didnt reply me. when i reached my bus stop, decided to go find out what was that important thing they were discussing haha so went back to schl. hm had discussion then went to practice a little for national day. it was. hiiiilarious. kinda. haha!

yup, came back at abt 6+, bathe, ate, then i just finished the proposal. and nowww. im gna sleep!
hahha. ytd slept at 1. madness.
woohoo! im so proud of myself. i just mastered the art of writing short posts. haha!

cya!!
<3, val

i'm not in love ;
11:45 PM;

Monday, July 21, 2008

today is not a very good day. sigh
my mood just spirals all the way down. zz.

woke up this morning, felt quite good. Cause it was cool since it rained. Mm.. left house abt 12+, when to nats to find my revision worksheet. started drizzling halfway on my journey. haiya. nats mum lent me this hot pink umbrella to take when i left haha.

yup so. ha..this was when it all started. see la. okay imagine, walking slowly under the umbrella, its drizzling quite abit around you, with ear phones that muffles out all sounds around you, you can only hear the music playing on your phone. so its like your own world. o.O and then you're playing some jay chou song. and its usually those heartbreak songs. haiyaaaaa. see la. then i started to get melancholic. what shit.

then arrived at shaw, nikki smsed say meet at paragon. so bought some subway cookies and went on my way there. haiya. quite near la. so walked there. so imagine the same thing, just that this time with cookies T.T hais. became feelingless. walao the song was hypnotising can. went to sit at starbucks and waited for nikki. she came..and i was still feeling like that. grr. then mood went up a tiny tiny bit when we started talking.. and then kinda spiralled downwards at one point. zz. then it got stuck there. walked around for abit and then she had to go. so accompanied her to metro then left on my way back. walkwalkwalk. still in that dazed mood. then when i boarded my bus i realised i didnt have my earphones with me. called nikki.. she helped to check and then still dont have. hah. great. but then i didnt really feel sad or anything. still in that stupid melancholic mood. grrr. came back, played for a long time on the piano. ): didnt help. usually it does. oh well. so now im back. and im stuck with jay chou's music. arghhhhh. and then i just read something. and my mood kinda slided down abit more. sigh. i just wanna sleep.

not good not good. . i'll wait for tmr to come then.
cya
val

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i'm not in love ;
6:19 PM;

Friday, July 18, 2008

i. am. so. so. sleepy.
like very. like those 'once-your-head-touches-the-pillow-you're-gonna-KO' sleepy. haha sighsigh. BUT ITS FRIDAY weehoo. weekends rocks okay. they make me sane(:

Yup, so the whole week's been busybusybusy. Parents left on tues for the mission trip, had listening compre on that day too. which was... nvm. say alr you wont know what im saying anw. haha! yup, hm.. went out for awhile with nikki after that, ate subway cookies and walked around orchard(: okayokay, i think we didnt walk around, we just walked very, extremely slowly, with much heaviness, to our bus stops =.= sighsigh, moaning about amath test the next day and the listening compre, then walking in silence thinking about our sad lives due to block tests. hahhaa.
amath test on tues was okay i guess. just a question that i wasnt sure how to do. quite pleased with my results, saw it ytd, but didnt manage to see the paper yet. i could still do better though! (:

anyway, the horror of all horrors was chem block tests. THAT. was. aiyo nvm, say alr wait get depression. the studying is like crap. a shitload to study, and alot of what i didnt study, came out. great! sighsighsigh. hope i pass fairly alright. :S

Then had NCC. which was. kinda. weird. haha cause there were only me, lauren and joanna. And, something rather bad happened. sighsighsigh. haha you can ask me about it T.T Kinda hilarious, kinda ridiculous. tsk

Todaaaaay. was. fun! haha after school anyway. had ce, which i just spent talking to nikki la, as usual. cept the part where her group had to present. Then double english. Oh man, i could have died in that. At first i was doing emath, then we were passed a compre, and told to do it. haaaais. yup, the passage was so boring i really wanted to sleep. which i did. for 1 or 2 mins anw. xD sighness. haha so i realised we really had to hand up summary, so rushed it out in the last 15 mins. Had recess, which was boring. then chinese. which was, erm. quite cool. cause i listened and did my work! amazing right. ahaha. almost la. cause nikki had to do her summary, so i just followed the lesson. :O haha. then had chem! interesting interesting! francium is cool la. haha we saw videos of people throwing super reactive metals into water. which can like make HUMONGOUS explosions! and break a bathtub. ahahha. Francium the best la. Looked like some nuclear bomb. thrown into the sea, it had like this huge mushroom cloud forming. :o

then bell rangggggggg! schools over! woohoo, the elation, the celebration, the excitement! haha! me and nicole went to find ms sie to pass her a form, and on our way back we were kinda skipping/running, at the same time hi fiving each other and shouting out goodbyes to everyone!
lalala tgif! hehe(: Yup, so went with nikki to orchard. she didnt really know whether to watch a movie or not so we just sat at shaw first. made some calls, smsed, and tada! we bought tickets to THE DARK KNIGHT! cool cool coolman. we watched it on its opening! haha but only half the theatre full. and before the show started, i went in and out like 3 times. sigh hahaa the people must really hate me. first time was to go to the toilet. 2nd time was to go and take my bag out for nikki cause she bought bubble tea without bringing her bag, and we had to smuggle it in mah, haha lol. then last time was going in with her. ahaha.and our seats were rather high up, so each time i ran in and out i had to run over 20/30+ small steps. tsk, i was seriously gonna get a headache looking at all the red lines on the floor. and trying not to fall. i really very scared of stairs la hor. not really fated with them this year T.T

hmm, for the movie, haha. like the first 1/2 hr i kept asking nikki what was happening. haha cause i realised quite a long time had passed and i still wasnt sure what was happening. =.= so i had to keep asking her. haiya. really la. their english quite hard to catch when they're talking so fast. and i was eating. so maybe i was paying more attention on my cookie. haha! or maybe my chewing like muffled their talking. sigh. so i had to listen as hard as i do in history class for one of the portions. ahahha! A super long show, 2h 40 mins i think.. haha it was really a cool show. action was great, effects were cool. but i think sometimes quite anti climax. sigh. haha but all in all it was really good la i guess, tho i wasnt as gaga over it as i was over vantage point. nikki said maybe its cause its very long. haha. anw i was freeeezing in the cinema. and we took turns to share our jacket, tho she said my jacket smelt of my cookies., though i dont see whats so bad abt it ahahha. oh and cause i was so amazed at everything i was like asking nikki to do what i saw in the movie.

me: omg.. so cool! *whisper* eheh nikki, next time when you grow up, and become rich; eh wait you alr rich. okay when you become very very rich, can you go buy a plane?? then i can go sit! :D
nikki: HAHA yeayea

15 mins later

me: omg. wa..eh nikki! next time when you become very rich can you go make your building like that?? and call it TAY. ( you know bruce wayne had his 'wayne' building. hahha)
nikki: hhaha, i'll call it nikki
me: okok, then i'll go visit you :D

10 mins later

me: nikki! next time can you wear like that when you're a lawyer?
nikki:....

16 mins later

me: nikki..
nikki: *whisper-shouted* val! . shh!

me: heh hahha. (shuts up.. until the next episode of this happens again. but i stoppped la (: )

hahaha not my fault i was so fascinated with so many things la. kk shld go watch la i guess (: joker was cool. though rather mad and twisted.

yup, so finished at 5++ :o. hhaha. nikki went home and i went to take a train to novena to find tashka and my sis. wa at first i took wrong train la. then i realised only at douby ghaut. haha tsk
did some work at macs at united sq, then went for sermon at church. hahha worship was long, and the sermon was rather good i guess. hhaha what a funny pastor. but i think like several times during the sermon the 'guilty-as-charged' stamp was like being stamped in my head. hahhaa. okay la not so many (x Hmm, went out for awhile halfway cause i was having freaking cramps. so cold la inside. whats up with that place. zzz. so went out and stood outside the air con things, which blew out hot air. and made my whole body feel soo sooo sooooooooo comfortable. waa. heaven. hahaha!

yup, so aunty siok mian sent us home at the end and now im home! and now that im almost done with this post, my eyes are seriously. going. to close. like i . can. see... the bottom.. of my.. eyelids..and its closing..........................

ahhhhhh!
kkkkk haha i gtg alr la
cya all!
<3<3<3<3<3
val(:

i'm not in love ;
11:11 PM;

Sunday, July 13, 2008

i dont believe this
maybe i should just love myself more and put myself first

why does someone always have to ruin my mood each time i start something???

i'm not in love ;
7:02 PM;

i spot wavy hair on the top of my head!
ahhh!!!!!!!

i'm not in love ;
1:37 AM;

Saturday, July 12, 2008

now at tashka's house.

wa, just had dinner. my gosh. everytime i come here i eat like some pig.
so i just had like 2 and a half plates of spaghetti, and i have no idea how many meatballs :o

hm now blogging on tashka's vaio and it keeps giving me electric shocks! >:( grrr. the metal rims keep stinging me. sighsigh. her room is like so nice and comfy and cosy. boohoo i wanna stay here.

kaykay ive gotta go now(:

cya

i'm not in love ;
8:08 PM;

Friday, July 11, 2008

i'm not in love ;
3:57 PM;

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

woah. okay i was supposed to do history essay.

haha anyway last night slept at 1, studied bio from when? 12.45 to 1. wahaha. yup okay then bio test was surprisingly easy. but easy doesnt mean i know how to do all though xS well, im sure if i had studied properly then can do all la. anw, it was kinda of a shock too cause i had no idea we have to do a graph and like do essay questions. haha

the rest of the day was pretty cool. in fact i love today. (: tho there were a few boring lessons here and there, it was pretty much filled up with assembly and career talk. anw the fact that i managed to catch up with nikki was good enough. wahaha. (x assembly was prefect nominations. ahaha. i was thinking whether to void my votes. oh well. haha i didnt if you want to know. career talk was quite. interesting. haha though i knew pretty much what she was talking about. but those insights into the job were quite cool though (: had an ss lecture, which was spent conversing with nikki rather animatedly about our career talks, till we got shushed by pris, and our papers were blank. oh well! time passed pretty fast due to it tho hahaha.

stayed back in the ncc room after school to have ncc meeting with mr jo. haha! confidential, but highly amusing and funny haha. okay so like it ended at 4.30 and i stayed back for idunnowhat, and hanged around with xinyuan and lauren, waiting for qiying and joanna and chloe who took a highly ridiculous long time to take qiying's bag from class. tskk. and the minutes of meeting were with them thats why. ah well.

went home at like 6, with lauren. came online.. for about..15 mins. decided i need to rest my eyes, and the next thing i knew i was as asleep as a dead log. haha fine not so asleep. but wa it was the most solid sleep i've ever had. like ytd, i had my 20 mins sleep. wa. its like in this time, you can be woken up by other stupid things (like people talking downstairs, sister walking ridiculously loudly outside, etc) but then when you lie back on the bed you just knock out again. and you dont dream. you just really get your sleep. wow. haha i think my poor body was really telling me i needed my sleep. ah well. i slept at..okay i dont know. sigh but i know i woke up at like 8.15? wa.. 1 hr plus i think. <33 and when i came online i realised my laptop had just shut down. i hate it when it does this. then cause i never close anything on my laptop, except the laptop itself when i go out/sleep/downstairs or anything, when it shut down, msg history isnt saved, i lost my links and websites i was at. and i have to restart everything. sheesh. oh yea, i think someone talked to me on msn when i was sleeping, i heard. but since my laptop decided to die, im sorry i dont know what you said xS

anw argh freak. im ridiculously sick again. what is up!? everyday hot cold hot cold, then at night got fever. excuse me what crap. sheesh. and my nose is dripping like no one's business. sigh. so frustrating to keep on sniffing.

okay im slacking. im supposed to bathe.
and things i've still yet to do; ce ppt, history essay!!!!!, minutes of meeting

sigh, ok last part, since nat wants her name here so much, i shall write out a small part here that involves her. haha

anyway yea, sat i went to her house (: wahaha i think the main attraction is her wardrobe. zz if i go there too many times its gna make me a bimbo before i can say 'boo!' haha. anyway its still cool la. like going barbie doll's house. heehee. anyway, we talked, planned some stuff, tried to study bio (but apparently failed. stupiddd.) haha and her house reception amazingly lousy one la. like the internet on 2nd level. but you go 3rd level got no more internet connection, then phone connection have to walk out to the enormous balcony then have reception. alamak. !? yup, then spent most of the time around her huge wardrobe. haha! cause invited her to church and all that, so was helping her choose clothes, at the same time admiring how her heels could give the illusion that my legs were actually long. ahah! okok anw, sun went her house again, picked her up at 8, rushed her, got out of the house at 8.30, took a taxi and rushed to church. ahaha. after service, went back again, to study bio. sorta more successful than sat, but still not very. 3+ went to dress up again and all that, then took a taxi to pretty clark quay at 4+ hee (:
hmm. and yea, the night at clark quay was beautiful(: went back at 8+ sadly, couldnt stay any longer, cause promised parents i'd be back early. yup, so went back, changed out. and went home (: haha love, nat(;

okay, gotta go now. shall assess the priority and consequences of not doing history essay. hmm.
(x

cya all!
<3,>

i'm not in love ;
9:02 PM;

heyheyhey ya'all!

haha this post is for my greatest bestest friend,

nikki!

yea okay so i just wanna thank her for today (: Had a talk after so long (well, it felt like during the short hols), walked/paced/sat around the lobby and chatted for one hour. Thanks for making everything normal again, thanks for clearing my mind, thanks for making it seem right, thanks for the advice, thanks for listening, thanks for the call. (:
♥♥♥♥

yup, i dont know what i would do without such people in my life. Bestfriends seem to be Godsent when you feel everything's perfect again. Even if they're just there.

if only they'd be here forever,
it could be happiness everyday(:

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i'm not in love ;
12:30 AM;

why cant i fucking study!?!

i'm not in love ;
12:08 AM;

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

hm, i wonder if you cut yourself, and then draw over the cuts with a pen,
would it become a tattoo? (: pretty cool
haha ignore, its some random note

sigh dont know what im doing.
i think i just did nothing but daydream, stone, stare, chat a little for the past one hour.

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I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye

[Verse]
God damn, my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you're going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

[Chorus 1 + 2]
Give me something to believe in
[ Makes Me Wonder lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

Cause I don't believe in you
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try (yeah)
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye

[Breakdown]
I've been here before
One day I'll wake up
And it won't hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause..

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you and I...
And so this is goodbye

[Chorus 1 + 2]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you,
Anymore, Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true
Anymore Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye, yeah (x 3)
(Oh no)

- makes me wonder

i'm not in love ;
11:51 PM;

argh i keep falling asleep!
what is wrong with me zzzzzz

i'm not in love ;
8:18 PM;

Monday, July 07, 2008

i cannot freaking believe, i just wasted past these 3 days
and i didnt study!

and like lit test is tmr. and im talking on msn instead of reading whale rider.
GREAT. so dead. sososo dead. i better go pray.

<3val

i'm not in love ;
11:26 PM;

i love rowntrees pastilles <3 oops i think i just ate the whole tube. sighh. (x

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Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x]
Shut it up, just shut up
Shut up
Just shut up
Shut up [3x]
Shut it up, just shut up

[Chorus]
We try to take it slow
But we're still losin control
And we try to make it work
But it still isn't the worst
And I'm craaazzzy
For tryin to be your laaadddy
I think I'm goin crazy

Girl, me and you were just fine (you know)
We wine and dine
Did them things that couples do when in love (you know)
Walks on the beach and stuff (you know)
Things that lovers say and do
I love you boo, I love you too
I miss you a lot, I miss you even more
That's why I flew you out
When we was on tour
But then something got out of hand
You start yellin when I'm with my friends
Even though I had legitimate reasons (bull shit)
You know I have to make them evidence (bull shit)
How could you trust our private lives girl
That's why you don't believe my lies
And quit this lecture

[Chorus]

Why does he know she gotta move so fast
Love is progress if you could make it last
Why is it that you just lose control
Every time you agree on takin it slow
So why does it got to be so damn tough
Cuz fools in lust could never get enough of love
Showin him the love that you be givin
Changing up your livin
For a lovin transistion
Girl lip so much she tryin to get you to listen
Few mad at each other has become our tradition
You yell, I yell, everybody yells
Got neighbors across the street sayin
“Who the hell?!?”
Who the hell?
What the hell's going down?
Too much of the bickering
Kill it with the sound and

[Chorus]

Girl our love is dyin
Why can't you stop tryin
I never been a quitah
But I do deserve betta
Believe me I will do bad
Let's forget the past
And let's start this new plan
Why? Cuz it's the same old routine
And then next week I hear them scream
Girl I know you're tired of the things they say
You're damn right
Cuz I heard them lame dame excuses just yesterday
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
No it ain't
That was a different thing
It was the same damn thing
Same ass excuses
Boy you're usless
Whhoooaaaa

[Chorus]

Stop the talking baby
Or I start walking baby
Is that all there is [repeat]

i'm not in love ;
5:13 PM;

sigh

this takes up more energy than taking care of five 4 year olds.

i'm not in love ;
1:55 PM;

damn bored with bio can. freak
i seriously dont know if im remembering anything. pray i do :S sighh.

i'm not in love ;
12:26 PM;

Saturday, July 05, 2008

wahah. last night was weird.
i think. i was looking at blogskins. yup. then dunno how..

ok i was sitting on my bed crossed legged, laptop in front of me right.
somehow i fell asleep. o.O and when i woke up i was still cross legged just that my back was now on the bed and my head on the pillow. ahaha. wa i never ever slept like that before. and i have no idea at what time i fell asleep. but i know i woke up at like 3.30 O.o hahaha. i was pretty stunned that i slept like that. so i closed my laptop, put it on the floor. but this time i couldnt get back to sleep. aiyo. so nvm, i think i lay in bed for like 15 mins before managing to fall asleep, but then after that i had a super light sleep throughout. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. how irritating.

hahah okay la, yea i did come to blog abt my sleep (x
=p haha cya ltr!

val<3

i'm not in love ;
11:15 AM;

Friday, July 04, 2008

i was never good at this,
how come it never seems to work out?

i'm not in love ;
11:18 PM;

its good for you if you comfort me when im sad
its bad for you if you dont support me when im angry.
very.

arghh
someone buy me black eyed peas cd

i'm not in love ;
6:04 PM;

Thursday, July 03, 2008

i hate this.
im about one step back to square one.

i wanna leave singapore and get a new life.
sigh.

i'm not in love ;
10:51 PM;

hm, today pt was interesting. but since i was sick, it was kind of a torture to half run and half walk 5 km. haiya.

so..yea. went to malcom park, walked into the road to the back of sji.. walk somemore.. past cjc..then a few cadets started falling out... so i didnt have to make myself run anymore. but i felt pretty uncomfortable being so far behind. wa and i didnt know the way back ok. but then apparently its like one way. sorta. mm. yea.. in the end 4 cadets fell out..so i walked with them past chancery area..past nats house.. ahha. then acs.. then all the way back to school.

wa tiring man. but interesting. i had NO IDEA. sji was so big. seriously la. walao. and it looks so resort like.. o.OO like theres this area that looked like the front of the lobby area of the resort that kind of thing HAHA. ok. yup. and cjc looked so rundown. hais. and like all the houses along the way was. wa. like ginormous and for the rich. tsk. but pretty tho. so i was admiring houses all the way, and hearing dogs bark at us.

yup, so after parade, talked to ma'am stacey in the courtyard, got chased by the guards..then went on to talk in the room. first time people leave before me man. hoho okay.

so yea, i'll leave the next post for another time (:
cya

sigh i think i need an emergency trip to nats house la.
help. going to go mental soon.. ):

i'm not in love ;
8:06 PM;

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

wa sian.

effing sick. cant stand it. my nose is like some running tap. im like sniffing with some tissue, and ah-chooing while walking around the house. sigh. and i hate waking up. the freaking pain from my dry throat is soooooooooo pain i cant stand it.

sighsigh sigh. school tomorrow. with same old boring subjects and same old boring teachers. sigh im going to cry. i think the only good thing today was my nap. tho it was disturbed by some highly annoying people downstairs trying to shift furniture into my house. sheesh. oh well at least i managed to sleep arnd 2 hours? (:

okay, i gotta go get my absolutely precious sleep now.
haha cya!

i'm not in love ;
10:54 PM;

haha i dont think i'll ever finish my posts about the last 2 days of spec course OR uk trip
but oh well

anyway, im free today.
ever since school started i have been freaking tired. ): And i realised that this year, i have been wanting to sleep in class, and ive been getting sick more often too. Hah. usually i get sick only like twice a year. Now im like going to doze off in almost every class. sigh

So, yesterday was chinese orals. hah, freaked me out. ok not really. abit. i was like the second last person, and to keep me and nikki from getting scared, i was like making all sorts of funny comments, and singing songs. wahah i think my sense of humour has never been so good before. yup, and i got scared when there were like 3 people left. haiya. Well, orals wasnt so good, but it wasnt that bad either. I thank God that i had something to say, even tho i couldnt really think of the chinese words for it. ahhh. let me show you an excerpt from my orals.

Question: Students nowdays prefer to go to poly (li gong zue yuan) rather than jc (chu ji xue yuan), what do you think of this?

me: blablabla, give opinions on poly
a while later..
me: wo jue de ling yi ge ... ge.. ge..
teacher : chu ji xue yuan?
me: ahh, dui dui chu ji xue yuan! Wo jue de ta blablablalba

(translated: i feel that the..the..the..
jc?
ahh yeayeayea i feel that jc is blablabla)

moments later
me: um, wo hui qu... er...(talk softer) na ge xue xiao shi shen me ah? (something lidat)
laoshi: chu ji xue yuan?
me: ahh shi shi!

(translated: erm, i will go to...er. oh what was that school just now ah?
jc?
ahhh yes yes!)

oh man... so you see what i mean by bad. and i kept repeating my points too. sigh oh well

anyway after orals, went out with nikki to heeren. we were in a state of stoning and shock okay.
this is what o levels do to you. we were like sitting there in silence, staring at our cake and into space.. and despite the quite nice but not very nice either cake, i didnt have appetite. sigh. wa like all my organs disappear alr. ok, managed to recover abit and made our way to paragon.
for what?
...
..
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supermarket! haha. cause our books were so heavy, especially with my ridiculously heavy file and my paper bag of boots and more papers. so we decided to use the trolley. smart right!
aha so we just talked and walked around the supermarket. ahhaa. fun. (: and i saw a 20 bucks rock melon. seriously man. madness. and then we stood and stared at the nice mussels/salmon. and drooled. ok we didnt. but. it looked so nice and comforting. hais.

yup, so after that we brought the trolley out.. walked around the level with the trolley. haha. its super useful. (x

after we walked the area, we decided to go up. which. was. very tiring. hais. i was so so so tired and i was burdened with all my stupid stuff. and it was so heavy that we'll sit down on some random bench and talk for 5 mins and carry on walking again.

haha, so walked aimlessly around the place, and since it was paragon, we couldnt exactly go into the shops that were there. so we went into muji ( which we pronounce as mu ji. hen. mother chicken. x)

yup, so afterwards nikki had to rush off. so i took an effffffffffffffffing squashed bus home. SHEESH. i hate buses.

mm, for today? was going to sleep in amath, attempted sleeping at the ending of chem class. hais.
recess was fun. haha. amazingly. quite la. wahhaa. we ate..talked. then we decided to call upon the spanish school about our very very very overdued lessons.
seriously man, we've been waiting since like feb. excuse me!?

ok, so since i had the card in my wallet, we went to the public phone and i called the place.
hais. haha the conversation was rather funny. especially at the end.

the woman: okay so you 2 are teenagers right?
me: yup.
the woman: oh okay, so you're having school now?
me: uh huh! its recess(: ! byee!
put down phone.

haha. after the phonecall, (we seriously thought they close down or sth lor. walao. wait so long)
nikki and i went to play at the see saws. which is serrrrriously fun. hahah! so first we were trying to balance the seesaw while sitting down. haha funny. haiya anw we failed at that lor. haha but the whole process was hilarious. then we tried doing it standing up. and failed again. haha. so after that went back to class.

had the last lesson, which was chinese, haha where we just talked and talked. lao shi went off at 1.40 so we talked even more till 2. (: so we had a very intellectual discussion which was rather enlightening and at the same time depressing. aiyo. i really need to buck up :S

haha so schl ended and now im home. and i really need my sleep. aha. so cya!
LOVE!

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